week no-end
i am working overtime tomorrow. the first since, i don't know, september or something. we're not that busy, just fixing a job we did last year and the customer just got around to finding out that the CDs are bad. as in "don't work". wonderful. the job is huge, like ten thousand or more huge and they want it by monday afternoon. this is for a huge educational company and since we've lost a couple of really big accounts this year, we need to bend over backwards for the big guys i guess.
for me it will mean a big paycheck next week. i am also going in 2 hours early on monday morning which means 2 hours OT for next week or one day where they will tell me to go home early. not a problem there at all!
i also got my new headlight/parking light/trun signal assemblies in the mail today. tomorrow after work i will attempt to put them in mysef. each side is in three sections so that might make it easier. it will be so nice to see better going down the road.
when i got home from work and getting groceries today, i made a pot ful of spaghetti sauce with dad's recipe. i think it is the best batch of sauce i have made ever. i don't know if it's because i have been just adding browned beef to classico's "basil marinara" jarred sauce as of late or if it was just extra special because i added a little more fresh rosemary than i usually do. whatever it was, the sauce came out great.
i am now feeling lethargic due to the fact that i ate a lot and that i am so tired after such a long week.
this has been an unusually stressful week for me. no one reason, just random stuff. i quit drinking coffee a few days ago, although since i will be leaving for work tomorrow morning at 5:10, i fixed enough to fill my "to go" cup. only a third of what i was drinking daily.
there is also a lot of stupid stuff going on in my head right now that has been nibbling at me and this morning on my way to work i had an actual anxiety attack. well i think that's what it was. it was extra dark, very rainy and i was listening to a godsmack CD and all of a sudden out of nowhere i started thinking about my dad and about when he passed away and a bunch of other stuff and generally just feeling really "alone". by the time i got to work, my heart was pounding a little and i was breathing shallow and i was in tears.
anyone who knows me knows that's not like me at all. it was very weird and i had to sit in my car to decompress for a few minutes before going in. good thing i got there a little early so i could take my time getting out of the car. hopefully it was just an isolated incident.
similar stuff happened to me last year right after i lost my dad but hasn't happened in a very long time. maybe it's just because i have been taking care of some loose ends dealing with him and he's been on my mind even more frequently the past few weeks.
maybe i should stop trying to self analyze and just dry my hair and go to bed. i have to be up by 4:30 and that just sucks.
at least since i haven't been drinking so much coffee i am getting to sleep a little easier.